Karen's Journey

June 12, 2014
We are starting off the summer with a liquid diet again.  Well, not actually liquid.  We are sticking to protein shakes and soup for the next three to four weeks.  As usual, my body tries to undermine me.  I have gained two pounds, but I will persevere and keep at this until I lose at least 10 pounds.  Whenever I get discouraged, I look at my grandson and remember I want to be a part of his life for a long time.  Isn't he adorable? 

March 28, 2014

I am a stress eater.  So, when things get stressful at work, like they are every year during the spring months, I tend to reach for my favorite snacks.  Chips, cookies, nachos, anything with tons of empty calories and load of saturated fat. I am working to change my habits.  I am working to change my habits.  I am working to change my habits. Yes, I know I am repeating myself.  The principle behind leaning is that you have to hear something three times or more before it sinks in. I am pretty hard headed, so it might take 300 repetitions for me to get the message through to my impulse center.  With our monthly weigh in looming just on the horizon, I need to keep reminding myself, I am working to change my habits. There are plenty of healthy snacks out here, but the real issue is not what I snack on, but dealing with the stress. Prayer and exercise are the tools I am using to help me through. It is a matter of remembering that a quick prayer and or a quick walk will help far more than a bag of Cheetohs.   

March 18, 2014

Well, as it turns out, today was much better than yesterday, Thank you God!  Except, there is always and expect (notice how I avoided using the word but, it upsets my daughter since I chose to put a picture of our backsides on this blog,  what was I saying,...Oh yeah, that I have been so tired, like falling asleep if I sit down for more than 10 minutes kind of tired. This could have to do with my thyroid because my blood tests show that I have hypothyroidism.  The symptoms pretty much mirror everything I have been struggling with for the past several years.  We'll see.  Could be that the thyroid has nothing to do with it.  I ran across a webpage that has some really great information about healing your thyroid. The author, Andrea Beaman, recommends healing your body "with natural foods and a holistic approach to wellness."  If you want to check it out for yourself @ Andrea Beaman 

March 17, 2014
What a day!  I don't know what it is about the time change that throws my body for a loop, but man getting up and going to work this morning was tough.  T O U G H. 
If each day is a gift,
can we return
But I did it.  And even when it turned out to be the kind of Monday that depress me why don't you song lyrics are written about, I was able to avoid all my food traps.  Score one for me.  Praying that tomorrow will be a better day.  Oh wait, administering tests all day tomorrow...well maybe Wednesday. One can only hope.
March 15, 2014

My summer vacation spot just waiting for me.

Spring break is over.  Well, it was officially over yesterday, but today feels like the last day.  I did get some things accomplished, like getting this blog up and running.  Now it is back to work.  It is hard to believe this year has flown by so fast.  If I could just drop weight as fast as I can lose time, wouldn't that be wonderful?  Summer vacation is just around the corner, and as you can see my chair is waiting for me.
March 13, 2014

Karen,Wife, Mother, Grandmother (finally), Sister, Daughter, Aunt, Niece, Friend, Teacher.  Sometimes it is hard to keep track of who you are in the midst of all the people who want or need something from you.  Truly, I love all the roles that life has given me a part in. 

I am certainly better at some than others.  Age give perspective, wisdom, and a certain amount of acceptance.  What it doesn't give is do overs.  Working on losing weight and improving the outside, makes it impossible to not realize that overhauling one area of your life means poking into all areas of your life.  No stone unturned, as the saying goes. Although my journey isn't about finding myself, I know who I am. 

It is more about making each moment count and the choices I make from this point forward.  When we visit our grandson, it is more evident than any other time.  He changes so much from month to month.  We have a few days, sometimes just a few hours, with him, and then we must come home and jump back on the merry-go-round we call daily life.  I want him to know that he is loved, unconditionally. 

 Now, at the beginning of each visit, we have to rebuild the connection.  I am looking forward the time when he will remember me...us.  My husband made the comment the other day, "I think he will be a Gma's boy." I replied, "Doyle, you know that there is no limit on love.  The love he feels for me is a reflection of the love I show him.  It in no way diminishes the love he shares with you.  He can be Gma's boy and Pops' boy. He will love us both."  It is my hope that the steps I am taking now will give me many years to watch Gma's boy grow up. 

March 12, 2014

The road to skinny is somewhat like the road to heaven.  It is very narrow and very hard to stay on.  I am lucky that when I am feeling weak, there are two other people who help me to overcome my weakness...most of the time. 

The down side to this is that sometimes, I am not just fighting my weaknesses, but trying to hold out against the others.  When these moments happen, I have learned to say, "Okay fine, but you know that you are responsible for what you eat, not me."  This is usually enough to turn the tide in my favor.  If that doesn't work, then I have Donna look up the nutritional info for whatever food they are trying to convince me we should eat.  Once they know the calorie count, they give up the fight and pick something more reasonable, or not, but again, I am off the hook. 
March 9, 2010

The hardest part of this process for me is posting pictures of myself.  I have never been extremely photogenic, but since I have gained weight, I am even less photogenic.  Yet, if I don't let people take pictures of me with Braden, someday he is going to wonder why there are no pictures of the two of us. 

 I can live with the gray hair, most of the time.  I can live with the wrinkles, although I don't really have many of those yet.  But this beastly extra poundage needs to go.  I keep reminding myself that it didn't appear over night.  It took me 10 years to gain 60 pounds, so if it takes me a year or more to lose it, I have to be patient.  I have lost 22 pounds since July.  That is more weight than I have lost on any eating plan that I have tried in the last 10 years. 

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